I have a million things running through my head. A long list of to-do’s. My hands are shaking, and I feel like I’m plunging into early-menopause with these hot flashes. I’m nervous. Like, whoa, nervous. I haven’t been this nervous in a very long time. My jaws are creating more fluid than I know what to do with, and I’m one ‘to-do’ away from vomiting. I can’t catch my breath, and my chest feels like it’s going to suffocate my airway.
Why did I do this? Why did I set up A Talk Shop? I didn’t need to do it. I could have stayed quietly and securely tucked away in my safe little wedding photography bubble. I could be blogging a beautiful wedding, or an engagement session right now… because, let’s face it… I’m really bad at blogging engagement sessions. I could be setting up my office organizational software. Let’s be real, I could be watching The Real Housewives right now.
**Oh, sidebar: The Real Housewives of Melbourne? I’m not a fan.**
But instead, I’m running around with my head cut off getting ready to host a workshop for a group of wonderful photographers. Photographers who are expecting me to teach them something, nonetheless!
I have to remind myself that this is a step outside of my comfort zone. A step that might take me on a different path, a better path. Not that my path is bad. My path is very very good, and I loooooove my path. But I know that there’s more…
Photo Credit: Kristen Joy Photography